But I can't find my friend.
Called her house, "wasn't there", no show for school three days, going on four tomorrow. My French teacher got a note of the "she won't be showing up to class" deal. So... where is she?
I'm confused.
I have to call again today, I don't want to go over there because she probably won't be there.
Woo. Detective work works out for me.
My friend Ang has a burning party the other night. Burning Party = Burning old Diaries/Pictures anything from the past.
I said she'd regret it. It's to forget her ex-bff. I said I regretted it when I did that.
I burned a poem, just a thing I wrote a long time ago. A year or three ago maybe. I remember this day. I wrote it. And I wanted it the flames to be symbolic to ending my relationship with that person. It didn't work. I regretted it, I don't even remember what it said. I don't even remember writing it. I just remember burning it. The scraps now lay in my desk... charred... burned... never to be read again.
Yesterday at her & Al's bday party we were reminiscing about good times with Jon & Elaine and everybody and everytime we do that I say "those are the memories you burned." Because it's completely true. She'll never have those memories back. I read my old journals all the time. Not all the time, that's a lie. But I re-read it once. And I was like "I totally forgot that ever happened."
Apparently this never happened:
Ang: What are you learing in math?
Al: Verbs.
I went through hours looking through everything I've written in & couldn't find it.
I don't want to go back to school tomorrow.
I'm not sure how many times I'll say that.
Maybe enough to where I'm actually not in school anymore.
I played bass for the first time of my life yesterday. It was so tantalizing. Breathtaking. I enjoyed it more than anything. And then I played an acoustic bass... I want a bass so bad. I have for the past, I'm not sure. The past few months. It was only about 200 dollars. When I get that bass I could finally start my one man band. I have two guitars, a piano, a keyboard, a drumset, and a harmonica. Lol. I just need amps... and an electric guitar. And a synth!! I want a synth so bad. Synth, bass, electric guitar. :) Sounds nice.
Sounds perfect. That bass was amazing... it might've been the cheapest bass ever, but it was perfect in my eyes. I played it, I loved it.
I'm going to own a bass.
I was thinking "Ey, I'm like Hunter [Burgan] right now. Jammin' a bass." And then when we were leaving "The Con" came on. I was happy.
Yesterday was perfect. Except for the headache. Ate food, went to Barnes & Noble (read Inked !! my new favorite magazine), watched some Sox, and then went to the party & met up with old friends.
Good times.
Good times.
-Saying Not Scared, Still Worried
Sunday, April 26, 2009
Sunday, April 19, 2009
Build A Wall
I'm kind of sad I don't update on blogger anymore.
I've decided not to because I didn't want anyone reading my old ones because I thought they were extremely lame. I now realize what last summer was for.
Finding myself & talking to Mace for 40 hours. :)
I DEFINITELY am over that one chica i was talking about in one of the first posts. They're still dating. Have been for about 8 months or whatever. I'm not sure anymore. But the bad thing is .. I'm over her, but under a new girl. It's sad, I'm trying not to fancy her as much as I know I can, because I know it will never go anywhere.
Funny thing happened: I got up to go to the bathroom & then when I was done, I got out and my cat was outside the door meowing at me. So then I went downstairs to give her food and then it was the good food and cat food isn't good for dogs I was gonna wait around for her to be done. So then I was like, okay, what can I do? Ooh, pizza, yum. So then I got some pizza and looked on both couches for my brother, when he wasn't there I looked in the computer room and concluded he went to his bedroom to sleep tonight. When I looked outside I saw my neighbors walk across the street, and then her brother was trying to follow them also. A little boy was walking in front of my house who had no relation to them whatsoever. So then they ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS lose their dog Cupcake. So then Cupcake got out again and then the younger boy was yelling "CUPCAKE! CUPCAKE COME BACK!" and then started following his dog.
The little boy on my sidewalk passed the door i was looking out of and so did the dog. So then I walked over and looked out my side window and then I saw the little boy run really quickly away and then I saw the dog chasing after him. The neighbor was running after both of them trying to get his dog back.
It was really really funny.
People don't know how to control their dogs.
My sister is back from Florida.
I'm really really sad I didn't update this thing a lot now. : ( Because my last posts were so good and so awesome.
I miss updating here. Especially because nobody I knows reads it.
I got a twitter... ? twitter.com/thesounknown
Today is a FUN filled day...
I have to do:
The meeting is about a France/Austria/Germany/England trip. "EuroTrip2010"
It's gonna be the summer of next year. Which will be extremely fun.
...if Meagan (the girl I rammed into in gym LOL) went to the World History Europe Trip... I would have went on the World History trip.
But since Jen, Stef & other cool people will probably go to the France Europe Trip I'd rather go on that one...
Which I'm planning on now.
Mostly because I'll actually have friends I talk to on this trip.
The World History trip, I'll have nobody to talk to at all. I'll be allll alone.
The France Trip meeting is at 1PM. It's currently 11:21, I have to take a shower soon.
I hope Stef is going to that meeting. Stef & Jen said they were gonna go.
I hope that the meeting is actually at 1PM.
I feel left out now that I'm not going to the World History trip now though...
They're at basically the exact same time... which is pretty lame...
This school year is almost over.
I'm currently failing English...
NOT GOOD.
I neeeeed to pass it, meaning I neeeed to get all A's for each and every assignment assigned from now until the end of the year!!!!!
Which will not happen, because there's hardly ANY assignments she assigns... : / I might fail English. Which is really really really really not good at all!!!!! I cannot fail.
If I still have an F or a D by the last two weeks I'm going to be forced to ask her if I can raise my grade at all aka like write a 5 page paper or read a book or something.
This is a really weird post to be posting because it's kind of like ...
Post Limbo.
Becuase it's me not updating, but updating on what's happening today and not... yesterday or five months before this post.
Oh yeah.
My brother is mad at me again.
For eating his rotini.
Everytime I bring home food from restaurants he eats it alll the time. He eats mine & my sisters, but when we eat his the whole world ends.
He gets angry over the smallest things...
As do I, but I forgive easily too. I'll get mad for maybe twenty minutes... I've never got SERIOSULY angry like he does. He gets angry and just doesn't speak to me for days at a time.
I don't understand him.
...I can't wait to go to France. It's about 430 days until the France trip... I cannot wait. :0)
I have about that many days to make 4000 dollars...
(4000 if you include how much I'd be brining to France...)
...I never go to see Tegan & Sara.
I didn't get to see them on a technicality.
I got my friend Ang to take me there. It went like this.
"How would you feel about going to a concert in a few months if I paied all expenses you were just the way to get me there? I'll pay for your ticket"
"Okay. What concert?"
"It's in October. There's another one too. In November."
"...What concert?"
"The first one is a Tegan & Sara concert, the second one is a Jack's Mannequin concert."
"Okay sure. Just remind me closer to the date."
And then I asked her a week in advance if I should buy the tickets...
And then a two days.
The day before she says she can't go because she's not allowed to drive anymore only to school and to work.
She said she was sorry but I said it was okay.
It really is okay.
But it's really not at the same time.
I learned the REAL reason why she couldn't go.
The real reason was she stayed too long at the I&M Canal and they closed their gates on her. So it was either get a trespassing ticket, or ram the gates with her car. She decided to open the gates with her car.
She told her parents she hit a pole at McDonalds... and they still think it's how it happened.
She went with Kevin, her now boyfried.
But before she dated him she told me he professed his love for her and she said they talked it out and they're fine.
But then a month or so later they were together.
A year ago Ang said she'd take me to prom with her, but Kevin says he wants to go with her and got mad at her when she said she wanted to take me. But that's reaaaaaaally okay. She can seriously go with him, I don't mind not going with her. (I really didn't want to go in the first place.)
But.
The reason I didn't go to a Tegan and Sara concert in Chicago was because I can't drive and she couldn't drive either... it makes me mad that the only thing between T and S and me were 40 miles.... FORTY MILES. ::shakes head::
That upsets me.
...I got to go to a Jack's Mannequin concert which was over 300 miles away!
Oh well.
I'll get over it (never) when I go to a concert. of theirs soon.
In the near future.
Becuase they're supposed to be putting a CD out in late Autumn.
Okay. I'm about done now, since I have to shower & have a full day ahead of me...
-Needing Time
I've decided not to because I didn't want anyone reading my old ones because I thought they were extremely lame. I now realize what last summer was for.
Finding myself & talking to Mace for 40 hours. :)
I DEFINITELY am over that one chica i was talking about in one of the first posts. They're still dating. Have been for about 8 months or whatever. I'm not sure anymore. But the bad thing is .. I'm over her, but under a new girl. It's sad, I'm trying not to fancy her as much as I know I can, because I know it will never go anywhere.
Funny thing happened: I got up to go to the bathroom & then when I was done, I got out and my cat was outside the door meowing at me. So then I went downstairs to give her food and then it was the good food and cat food isn't good for dogs I was gonna wait around for her to be done. So then I was like, okay, what can I do? Ooh, pizza, yum. So then I got some pizza and looked on both couches for my brother, when he wasn't there I looked in the computer room and concluded he went to his bedroom to sleep tonight. When I looked outside I saw my neighbors walk across the street, and then her brother was trying to follow them also. A little boy was walking in front of my house who had no relation to them whatsoever. So then they ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS lose their dog Cupcake. So then Cupcake got out again and then the younger boy was yelling "CUPCAKE! CUPCAKE COME BACK!" and then started following his dog.
The little boy on my sidewalk passed the door i was looking out of and so did the dog. So then I walked over and looked out my side window and then I saw the little boy run really quickly away and then I saw the dog chasing after him. The neighbor was running after both of them trying to get his dog back.
It was really really funny.
People don't know how to control their dogs.
My sister is back from Florida.
I'm really really sad I didn't update this thing a lot now. : ( Because my last posts were so good and so awesome.
I miss updating here. Especially because nobody I knows reads it.
I got a twitter... ? twitter.com/thesounknown
Today is a FUN filled day...
I have to do:
- English homework
- Go to a 2-year-old's birthday party
- Go to an 18-year-old's birthday party
- Go to a meeting.
The meeting is about a France/Austria/Germany/England trip. "EuroTrip2010"
It's gonna be the summer of next year. Which will be extremely fun.
...if Meagan (the girl I rammed into in gym LOL) went to the World History Europe Trip... I would have went on the World History trip.
But since Jen, Stef & other cool people will probably go to the France Europe Trip I'd rather go on that one...
Which I'm planning on now.
Mostly because I'll actually have friends I talk to on this trip.
The World History trip, I'll have nobody to talk to at all. I'll be allll alone.
The France Trip meeting is at 1PM. It's currently 11:21, I have to take a shower soon.
I hope Stef is going to that meeting. Stef & Jen said they were gonna go.
I hope that the meeting is actually at 1PM.
I feel left out now that I'm not going to the World History trip now though...
They're at basically the exact same time... which is pretty lame...
This school year is almost over.
I'm currently failing English...
NOT GOOD.
I neeeeed to pass it, meaning I neeeed to get all A's for each and every assignment assigned from now until the end of the year!!!!!
Which will not happen, because there's hardly ANY assignments she assigns... : / I might fail English. Which is really really really really not good at all!!!!! I cannot fail.
If I still have an F or a D by the last two weeks I'm going to be forced to ask her if I can raise my grade at all aka like write a 5 page paper or read a book or something.
This is a really weird post to be posting because it's kind of like ...
Post Limbo.
Becuase it's me not updating, but updating on what's happening today and not... yesterday or five months before this post.
Oh yeah.
My brother is mad at me again.
For eating his rotini.
Everytime I bring home food from restaurants he eats it alll the time. He eats mine & my sisters, but when we eat his the whole world ends.
He gets angry over the smallest things...
As do I, but I forgive easily too. I'll get mad for maybe twenty minutes... I've never got SERIOSULY angry like he does. He gets angry and just doesn't speak to me for days at a time.
I don't understand him.
...I can't wait to go to France. It's about 430 days until the France trip... I cannot wait. :0)
I have about that many days to make 4000 dollars...
(4000 if you include how much I'd be brining to France...)
...I never go to see Tegan & Sara.
I didn't get to see them on a technicality.
I got my friend Ang to take me there. It went like this.
"How would you feel about going to a concert in a few months if I paied all expenses you were just the way to get me there? I'll pay for your ticket"
"Okay. What concert?"
"It's in October. There's another one too. In November."
"...What concert?"
"The first one is a Tegan & Sara concert, the second one is a Jack's Mannequin concert."
"Okay sure. Just remind me closer to the date."
And then I asked her a week in advance if I should buy the tickets...
And then a two days.
The day before she says she can't go because she's not allowed to drive anymore only to school and to work.
She said she was sorry but I said it was okay.
It really is okay.
But it's really not at the same time.
I learned the REAL reason why she couldn't go.
The real reason was she stayed too long at the I&M Canal and they closed their gates on her. So it was either get a trespassing ticket, or ram the gates with her car. She decided to open the gates with her car.
She told her parents she hit a pole at McDonalds... and they still think it's how it happened.
She went with Kevin, her now boyfried.
But before she dated him she told me he professed his love for her and she said they talked it out and they're fine.
But then a month or so later they were together.
A year ago Ang said she'd take me to prom with her, but Kevin says he wants to go with her and got mad at her when she said she wanted to take me. But that's reaaaaaaally okay. She can seriously go with him, I don't mind not going with her. (I really didn't want to go in the first place.)
But.
The reason I didn't go to a Tegan and Sara concert in Chicago was because I can't drive and she couldn't drive either... it makes me mad that the only thing between T and S and me were 40 miles.... FORTY MILES. ::shakes head::
That upsets me.
...I got to go to a Jack's Mannequin concert which was over 300 miles away!
Oh well.
I'll get over it (never) when I go to a concert. of theirs soon.
In the near future.
Becuase they're supposed to be putting a CD out in late Autumn.
Okay. I'm about done now, since I have to shower & have a full day ahead of me...
-Needing Time
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